My Sweet and Twisted Life

“Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow.” ~Albert Einstein

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Wow!

He told me he thinks he is falling in love with me!
Pheramones anyone?

Monday, June 26, 2006

no title post....

I was driving down the road today and came upon a biker. Now bikers don't normally turn me on, but for some reason this one did. He was driving a black Harley. He had on black boots, faded torn wranglers, and white muscle shirt. His head was shaved, he had a silver hoop earring in each ear, a mustache and slick sunglasses. The way he sat on the bike made you think he owned the world. I dunno, there was just something about him..... I wish I had my camera with me.

Another note.... I bought the first work out dvd by Carmen Electra. It is not that good. She giggles too much and you can tell she is still new at the whole workout instructer thing. I am glad I didn't buy the whole box set. Bummer.

In other news... dancer and I have reserved tickets and hotel to Playa Del Carmen in Aug! I can't wait!

Thursday, June 22, 2006

So shoot me....

I skipped class this morning. My second class got cancelled so why bother going to the first one, right? It's boring anyways. I figured I would stay home and catch up on some homework projects anyways.

So, I was surfing the net (yes, instead of doing homework, how did that happen?) and I found a workout dvd by Carmen Electra called Aerobic Striptease (yeah, I finally figured out how to put in the link). So, should I buy it? It looks like fun. And I would get a work out and I would learn something new....hahaha! I think I would hide it if my mom came over.

Random Ramblings....

Let's start off by saying I am close to my weight goal so of course I am gonna change it. Back on May 14th (no I don't know how to link it here so you'll have to look it up on your own, or not) I found out that I was going to have 3weeks off from school. I decided to use that time to lose weight. I wanted to loose 10 lbs. by now. I have lost 8 lbs. according to my scale. Wa-hoo! So I have decided that I want to lose another 5-8lbs. by the time we hit the beach at the end of July. That is attainable. I have 1 month to do it in. Unfortunately that means I need to work out. I've done most of my weight loss by cutting back on the food. I just don't have the time to work out. School is over July 6th. Then I will have time to work out.

Also, I am bombarded by homework. I can't even see straight. I have started stressing out, which caused a sore in my mouth. Also, the headaches started in yesterday, too. I have 2 more weeks left. Which is great because it will all be over soon, but I have no idea how I am going to get all my projects done in time. Ugh!

Dancer has been out of town this whole week. I get to pick him up at the airport tomorrow night. He has been texting me every day and calling me every night. I think that is awesome because I didn't expect him to do that since he is on vacation. He is just so attentive. Plus he knows my love tank gets filled with quality time since he is reading the book (5 love languages). I think his love language is touch. Gotta love that..hehe! So I guess that means if he spends time with me I will touch him, lol!

I am done rambling for now.....gotta hit the books.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

First tooth


My baby girl lost her first tooth! I almost cried. She patted me on the back and said she would always be my baby!

Monday, June 19, 2006

I have a keeper!

Ok it is past 10:30 pm. I have not done my 3 page assignment that is due tomorrow, yet. Instead, I am writing in my blog. What other things can I do to procrastinate just a little bit longer?

Annnnyyyyways... I think Dancer is a keeper. This is why. I am planning a trip to my dads house in July. The drive is approximately 11 hours. With a 5 year old who has never been on a rode trip lasting longer than 3 hours, it may take us 12 or 13 hours to get there. Originally the plan was my stepdad was gonna drive with us up there and drop us off at my dad's house and then he would procede on to his moms house about 3 hours away. He would then come back and pick us up and we would all drive home together. Well, due to unforseen circumstances (my brother is always ruining everything) my stepdad can't go. I found this out yesterday. Which leaves me and lil'babs to do the trek alone. The only problem I have is how to keep Lil'babs occupied for 12 hours by myself? My mom, stepdad, dad and dancer were all worried about us travelling alone for that distance.

The good news is I found 2 roundtrip tickets to a city only 2 hours away from my dads house for only $228 total for both tickets!!!! The cost of tickets are cheaper than what I would pay in gas. My dad will drive down and pick us up.

Ok, back to the reason Dancer is a keeper. I told him tonight that I found tickets and that Lil'babs and I won't have to drive after all. He told me he had decided after I told him yesterday that we were driving by ourselves to my dads, that he was gonna drive up there with us and fly back home and then fly back up and drive back with us! My jaw dropped to the floor. I can't believe he would be willing to do that for us! My own parents, who didn't like the idea of us driving because of the safety issue, didn't even offer anything like that. I am just in awe.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

The twisted...

I think there is an invisible fairy that lives in my house. This little fairy loves to lock the doors leading out of the house. She thinks it is hilarious to lock it when I go out to the mailbox or take out the trash. I am only gone for a minute. I come back and the door is locked. Why oh why does she torture me this way.

She did again to me tonight. I was taking out the trash. I was only gone long enough to walk it down to the curb. By the time I came back she had struck again. I was locked out of my own house. I got smart this time. I am on to her. I finally have an extra set of keys hidden away outside of the house because I knew that little fairy would strike again. I've learned it is not fun explaining to a neighbor that I have a fairy in my house that likes to lock the doors on me, and can I please use your phone to call my mom who has keys to get in.

Now, I hope she doesn't decide to move on to my car now that she knows I can get back into my house with the extra set of keys. I don't have an extra set of keys for the car, yet.

Friday, June 16, 2006

My little fish


My baby girl is beginning to be a great swimmer. At the beginning of the season she swam cautiously. Now she loves jumping in the pool. She can swim across the pool's width. She can float on her back and she can swim for a very short amount of time under water (she refuses to wear goggles which would make it a lot easier). I am surprised she hasn't grown gills and fins!

just a little scared....

What do I say? How can I explain it? This new relationship has really taken off. I basically have an ear to ear grin on my face all day and all night long. We see each other 2 or 3 times a week. When we arn't together we are texting like crazy. We have a real connection. I feel like I have known him forever. We don't even have to talk, we can just stare at each other and tell what the other is thinking. I am having a great time.

I am emotionally attached. He is too. He verbalizes his feelings towards me. I am a little more stand-off-ish in this conversation. I am scared it is just pheramones. It will wear off eventually, right? I don't want to get hurt. It is still early, so I've decided to just enjoy myself and take things as they come.

Speaking of enjoying myself....he has invited me to go to Mexico. We were talking about beaches. I told him I am just dying to get to the beach and will be headed to a TX beach at the end of July. He is headed to San Diego tomorrow for a week vacation with his girls. So he decided that since he was going to the beach and I was going to the beach that we should also go to the beach. Well he didn't have to twist my arm on that one. So, sometime in August we will be on the beach together. Yea! Can't wait!!

Sunday, June 11, 2006

an update....

Guess where I went today? The maze! For those of you who know me, I am addicted to it. I haven't been in awhile, so it took me a whole 6 minutes to get out (4 is my record). I got to add another "get lost" koozie to my collection. It took Dancer 11 minutes, which is really good for a maze virgin.

So, I got to spend some "quality time"(my love language) tonight with Dancer. A lot of cuddle time, which I love. He is so easy to talk to. I feel like we fit like a glove laying side by side. I found one of our conversations interesting. We were talking about our most recent relationships. The last one he had was almost identical to mine. He said she was real nice. He enjoyed her company. There was a few things he wasn't sure he wanted to deal with that was a part of her life. He said he just didn't feel "it" with her, like a real everlasting connection. He didn't see his future with her. He said they had broke up and then got back together then he broke it off permanently because he knew she was't the one. It was like deja vu when he was telling me this. I told him it sounds just like the way it was for me with PC. He thought it was weird how different it feels being with me. He likes the connection we have (I am thinking wow!). I feel the connection too, he is just more vocal about it than I am. I am cautious at this point to say too much.

I have a busy week ahead. I have family coming in town Mon and Tuesday night. I have 2 quizzes on Wed., ugh! I will see Dancer Thursday night. He goes out of town on Sat. for a whole week. :( I will have the whole weekend to myself because Lil'babs will be at her dads. That will be a good time to catch up on homework and sleep.

Ciao for now!

Saturday, June 10, 2006

Quote of the day

There is more hunger for love and appreciation in this world than for bread.
~ Mother Teresa

Friday, June 09, 2006

OMG

http://www.vizeau.com/
Check out the secret swimsuit collection.
Yeow!

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

My blog title should be dull or crazy life...

My life is either dull or crazy. There seems to be no inbetween. I have been bored for the last 3 weeks. It was kinda fun the first week.

I was ready to go back to school. I started Mon. I have 2 classes Mon-Thurs. I am gone from 9am-4pm. Unlike someone I know (Snow) I have homework in both of these classes every evening. So, I now go to school all day and do homework at night after Lil'babs goes to sleep. Fun with a capital F. In addition, next Monday I have my cousin and her 2 kids coming in for 2 days. Tuesday will be my other cousin and his daughter. They leave Wed. morning for a dude ranch near SA. Then to top it off I have 2 quizzes Wed. I have no idea when I will have time to study for those!

I do get to go out this Thursday with my Dancer. I can't wait. We will get together with a few other people we know and dance till our hearts are content. (Did the same thing last Thursday:~)

Dancer is the sweetest thing. He says the sweetest things. We talk all the time. We have so much in common. It's great! Here are some random text messages that I have received from Dancer over the last few days:

Special girl on my mind.

Good morning

Thanks for putting a smile on my face xoxo

Are you wearing anything under those?

Describe your pj’s

Imagination, I’ve been using mine.

Sweet dreams. Your call was the highlight of my day

Hey sexy, yes I am daydreaming

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

the second half of the story....

(the first half is below this post)
The following week was Thanksgiving. We spent Thanksgiving at my parent’s house. We were there pretty much all day. We arrived home around 10 pm. We had an answering machine with several messages on it. (Our answering machine refers to both boyfriend and I living there). He pushes the button. Some guy (I didn’t know it at the time, but it was John) left a message saying “Babs, you didn’t tell me you had a boyfriend”. My boyfriend was like “Who was that?” I said “ I have no idea”. The next message is the same voice “Why did you invite me over, but didn’t tell me you had a boyfriend?”. Now my boyfriend is getting a little pissed off because he thinks I am seeing someone and I am pissed because I don’t know who it is. Then the phone rings. Boyfriend answers it. The guy says “so you’re the boyfriend?” Boyfriend says”who is this?” He says “ask her”. So he asks me. I grab the phone and say “who is this?” He says "come on you know who this is” I say “Uh, no I don’t” He says “Why did you invite me over when you have a boyfriend?” I say “who is this?” He says “You know who this is”. Me- “ I don’t know who you are and I did not invite you over!” I hung up. I proceeded to tell boyfriend that it is some psycho or someone that has the wrong number because he is looking at me like I cheated on him or something. The weirdo calls back. Boyfriend answers and cusses him out and hangs up. He didn’t call back, but…..

About thirty minutes later while boyfriend and I are watching TV, we see out the blinds from our second floor apartment a cop driving by slowly with his spotlight checking out some cars. Boyfriend and I see this cop get out of his car and look into both my and his car with the flashlight. Boyfriends runs to back bedroom and tells me to tell him he’s not here (I find out after we are married why he did that, but that is a whole other story). The cop knocks on the door. I answer. He says “is everything alright?” I said “yes, why?” He said “someone called in and said that he was talking on the phone with you and heard you and boyfriend yelling and he was afraid for my safety.” I told the cop that that was not true that I have been receiving calls from that guy and he was harassing us. I asked for the guys name and he told me John. It didn’t ring a bell that night. I had no idea who the John was that called me and the cops. I was getting scared.

The two days later at work I was registering the rent that had come in. Guess who’s name pops up on my rent roll. Yup, John. And it clicks. He was the John that had called. The John that had been chatting with me the last couple of Sundays. He was psycho. Now I was really scared. I told my co-worker. She pulled his number and called him pretending to be a cop (I am sure it is an illegal offense to do so, but we didn’t care at the time). She told him that they new what he was up to and according to his previous record he better not contact me again or he will be put away again. She said he sounded scared and apologetic. Luckily I didn’t see him for the next month. In January I got a new job and apartment at another apartment complex and hightailed my butt outta there! I didn’t want to wait around to see what would happen if I had stayed.

Monday, June 05, 2006

Is he stalking me?

It all happened in 1995. I was a leasing agent for an apartment complex (although we were not allowed to call it a complex, it was a community). I also lived in an apartment there on the second floor with my soon to be husband. The complex was divided by a city street. A 1/4 of it was on one side and ¾ of it on the other. We lived on the larger side.

I am a friendly, helpful person by nature, and this is partially a customer service job. Frequently the tenants of the apartment came by to chat. There was one guy, we’ll call him John, that lived on the smaller side. We always chatted when he dropped off the rent. The office I worked in was on the larger side and has a workout room and dry sauna connected to the backside.

One fine Sunday afternoon when I was at work, John came by for a visit. (His stats: mid 40’s and ugly, that about sums it up.) He said he has been living there for awhile and decided to give the dry sauna a try. He wanted to know how to get to it after office hours and how to work it. So I showed him how to get to the backside of the office and how to adjust the sauna knobs. That was that. The following 2 Sundays he came by again and chatted for about a ½ hour. I guess he found out that I worked alone on Sundays and my traffic for business was slow. I figured since he lived by himself, that he was lonely and didn’t have anyone to talk to. My young (21) innocent, naive mind thought: What’s the harm in that?

more to come.....